Why won't it stop fucking raining?! Every damn day since I got back from visiting Gemma (13th November) it's rained, it's really starting to piss me off!
Although, to be fair, it has given me the time to play Need For Speed Carbon on Xbox 360. Not the hardest or best of games by a long way, but it's enough to keep you entertained if you don't want to think too much (we all know what I get like if I think too much!), I've completed the Career mode, but have to do it again three more times to get some of the Achievements - not sure I can be arsed!
Now, when I do tend to think too much and I'm near a computer with no one else around, I have another 'blog elsewhere where I put my deepest thoughts. It's a bit empty to be honest, but there is one thing I'd like to say here. Most people have experienced wanting something so much it hurts, especially if they can't have it, but have many people experienced the feeling of wanting something so much it doesn't hurt that you can't have it? A strange one, it would be interesting to know if anyone actually understands the meaning of that. Well, obviously some people will, but not many of the current 'Gimme gimme gimme' generations that seem to plague this Earth.
Still, enough of that, I should get back to looking for a job I suppose...
5 comments:
I read your other blog big man... it's well hidden! I understand what you mean but I think it's because you are protecting yourself in case it doesn't work out. I have been just as guilty of that, as you well know! All I can say is don't be afraid. You never know, the outcome may be exactly what you wanted. If not, then at least you tried and haven't got that nagging feeling of "If only..."
This life is short, Leo. Reach out and you never know what might happen. It can't be all bad.
Damnit Krisse - you're not supposed to go and find it!
Much of what you say is true, however it's more a case of timing and trying to find out where I'm headed in life before I can consider anything else.
I'm happier in many ways than I have been for a long time and I've got to figure out where I go from here, I'm too good to sit around the house or work for a fucking shop!
Sorry mate, you mentioned it and I was nosey!
You are absolutely right in trying to figure out where you are going personally before embarking on anything else. I think that you should think about moving away - perhaps back to Oxon/London... sounds like you are stuck there with not many opportunities. You need a challenge, big man. It'll fire you up and you'll feel better about things!
Well I've maybe taken one step, as I enjoy writing my 'blogs I've ordered a prospectus for a writing course, with a view to (motoring?) journalism, or possibly even writing a book.
Well good luck mate. Let me know how you get on!
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